Doctor Whooch // Episode 108 // Yelling At Tropes

In which we are human monsters.

Check it nerds: it’s our season finalé. We have seasons now. DEAL WITH IT DOT GIF.

On this week’s show: it’s THE RETURN OF DOCTOR MYSTERIO or us, as we see it, a show for FRIGGEN NERDS. Like us. We’re the nerds. So yeah. We discuss this year’s Doctor Who Christmas special in which folks unzip their heads and also there is a lot of Superman references that Steven Moffat googled a bit. Over the course of the show, we tear into silver age comics and introduce to you the French Doctor and it is not offensive. So don’t worry about it.

We said don’t worry about it.

Outro music is “Thoughts on Fire” by Ria Mae

Doctor Whooch // Episode 107 // Good Bonkers

In which we (finally) get to the thrilling conclusion of CLASS! And uh, it’s a thing.

So! With the Doctor Who Christmas Special just around the corner, we’re going face deep into “The Lost”, which wraps up this whole weird experiment. As we do so, we go swiftly off the rails, just like the show did, and talk about chaperones going downtown, what constitutes a good bonkers, and how Ram is pretty useless, among other things.

Stay tuned over the holiday season for our take on the Christmas Special! We’ll see you in 2017.

Outro music is “The King Is Dead” by Ruby Vileos

6 Ways My 2016 Didn’t Suck

Let’s be honest. This year has been so much more than a garbage fire. At times, it’s felt like all the post-apocalyptic YA’s novels we’ve been reading have come true, except with no choice between two equally drab men. During 2016, my depression hit a new low, I discovered new and awful triggers to my anxiety, and my relationship with Brandon had a wedge driven into it. So I thought, why don’t I try and focus on the positives? Good stuff HAD to have happened this year. How the hell did I get through it if it didn’t?

  1. I left an emotionally abusive relationship where I was treated as less than a person, repeatedly reminded my hard work was worth nothing, lied to and gaslit afterward, and finally screamed at when I attempted to change the situation to something positive and quasi-functional.
  2. I started a part-time temp job with an agency in July, and the company took me on as a permanent part-time employee in November. It’s a small company, and the people are nice. They understand that the majority of my time is focused on Variant Edition, and I work hard and am present the two days of the week I am in the office.
  3. I paid off my student loans back in July. I had been paying them off for nearly 8 years, and they had become an expense I felt was going to be a part of my life forever. Even though I was making very little money the last couple years, it felt really good to take control of one thing in my life and I guess detach myself from at least one financial stress.
  4. I’ve begun to take the occasional day off from the store. It’s a steep learning curve, but I’m trying to ease back into taking some time for myself.
  5. I see friends more often. Money still holds me back from a lot of hangouts, but a lot of people understand I’m working with a really tight budget right now.
  6. I saw the goddess Beyoncé in concert! Even though the weather was horrid, it was still quite the experience. I’ll remember it fondly forever.

When the world feels like it’s falling apart, there’s not always an incentive to pull up my bootstraps and keep going. I hope 2017 is better for me. I say that every year, but I think we all do that. I may not have positivity, but I will try to have hope. Oddly, those two things are quite different for me.

In 2017, I will find some hope.

Doctor Whooch // Episode 106 // Professors of Doctor Who

In which everything you hear is adatomically correct.

On this episode, Danica and Brandon are nearing the end of Class with episode seven – “The Metaphysical Engine or What Quill Did”, and the whole thing is about deep smooching as three grown ass adults bang around in a tub. Also, someone murders a satan, and the ending is super weird. But uh… that’s Class.

Outro music is “Tubthumping” by Pastel Vespa

Squad Goals and Dumpster Fires

The garbage year that was 2016 is about to wrap up, and so naturally, we’re all starting to take stock of what’s been and what might be.

Dumpster Fire

I have the tendency to reset my anxiety at milestones. Lately, this has happened on a monthly cycle, where I feel great about where I am and what the store did on the last day of a month, and then find myself super anxious a day later when I stare at a calendar that is empty and begging for goals and thresholds to be met. While rationally I know that I have the means to work through the month and get at least close to where we need to be, there’s a small voice in the back of my head that keeps whispering “this is it. This is the month it all falls apart.”

The worst part is the implication that I will be forced into a form of pacifism as everything slowly falls apart. I can understand where my brain gets it from: ever since Danica and I started Variant Edition, we have been met with outside forces beyond our control that have seemingly conspired to keep the whole enterprise down. A phone company that can’t figure out how to provide simple internet and phone access. A bank contact who will disappear for long stretches at a time who is terminally slow at processing your information. A business partner who… well… maybe let’s not get bogged down on that last point. That could end up being a whole big post unto itself. Suffice to say, when my brain looks at a fresh month, it attempts to convince my body that it should prepare itself to feel like garbage. Coming up to the end of the year, I’m a little afraid of how that anxiety will translate into the start of 2017.

For those of you who have been visiting the blog this past year, you know that our 2016 didn’t get off to a great start, which was a trend that continued through the year. At about the midpoint, we took some drastic measures to change this circumstance, and while things still aren’t great, we’re finally in a bit of emotional and financial control over our situation. Other than some of the last outstanding bits with our former business partner (a running theme of 2016: waiting for folks to actually accomplish their end of business transactions as promised), we are in control of what we have and what is spent, both physically and emotionally. It’s all on us. While at first glance, that might seem a bit daunting, after this year, it feels great to have that kind of control over our lives – even if it does mean it’s all resting on our shoulders.

Eat it, 2016

So. To combat what will surely be an anxious January 1st, I’m starting to get my house in order early. It started with Danica suggesting we build a game plan for ourselves both in terms of business goals and personal goals moving forward. It’s extended to the point where we’re starting them now and ramping up to 2017 instead of resting on our laurels, waiting for the clock to tick down before attempting to shift.

I want to say that 2017 will be our year. 2015 was supposed to be our year, and it almost was until the end of the year where it became readily apparent that our now-former business partner had very different goals than we did. That infected the entirety of our 2016, and we are finally clawing our way out of that.

So… 2017. One way or another, this year will determine the direction our entire lives go from here. It will very much be a “sink or swim” thing, one that we are now at least ready for. It… it probably won’t feel great, as we continue to find our footing while running at a full sprint, but… at the very least, it will be lived with purpose. It will be a reflection of who we want to be, and what we are fighting for. 2017 might not be our year in a “we made it” sense, but it will definitely be our year in terms of a statement of purpose.

Thank you for coming along with us on the journey so far, and thank you all for the support that you’ve shown Danica and myself over the past few months and years. Without you, I’m not sure where we’d be, and… hopefully you’ll stick with us through this new year, and see where we all end up. We love you all, and we’ll talk with you soon.

Doctor Whooch // Episode 104 // Crazy Shadow Sex Knives

In which we try to make sense of Class and might fail in the process.

On this week’s show, Brandon and Danica take another spin at trying to explain what’s been happening on Class as they recap “Brave-Ish Heart” – the fifth episode in the first series. The results of which are very mixed, but hey, at least you get another one of Brandon’s surreal episode descriptions of bonkers plot points! Also on this episode: we still love Brooklyn 99, y’all! It’s amazing.

Outro music is “Fight Song” by Rachel Platten.

Doctor Whooch // Episode 103 // Trans-Dimensional Heart Sexting

In which Class goes sideways in a really weird way, but hey, we’re drunk, so whatever.

On this week’s show, we reach the midpoint of CLASS with episode four, “Co-Owner of a Lonely Heart” and things get really weird. Are you ready for crazy teen/shadow monster sex scene parallels? What about bouts of murder rage and existential crisis about a weapon filled with souls? If only our biggest problems were “my heart is connected to a shadow monster” and not “the real world is filled with garbage”. Is that where we’re at? WHO KNOWS!

Outro music is “Owner of a Lonely Heart” by Grizzly Bear.

Podcast picture is by GIRL NAMED SHIRL PHOTOGRAPHY.

Doctor Whooch // Episode 102 // Active Listening

In which we encourage you all to embrace the abyss. (It’s an uplifting episode.)

On this week’s show, we demonstrate our veal for life by steering into some dark skids. Also, we talk about the third episode of Class, “Night Visiting”, which is pretty friggen great you guys. How will Drunk Brandon and Danica deal with teens experiencing loss and emotion? Let’s say well. It goes well.

Also hey, when we were looking for the outro music for this episode, we stumbled across a whole bunch of white German men singing “It’s Raining Men” so here’s a link to that.

Podcast picture is by GIRL NAMED SHIRL PHOTOGRAPHY.

NoNaNo 2016

So it’s November, and like every year, I really, really want to do the whole NaNoWriMo thing, but I know it would be a huge disaster. Case in point: it has taken me over an hour to write this many words.

My brain is actual garbage right now.

Anyway.

While every single synapse in my brain screams for the sweet release of death in the face of what my fingers are typing right now, I am making this challenge for myself official once more: while I won’t be writing 50,000 words of fiction, I will be trying to write 50,000 words this month in the form of posts here, at Comics Beat, and at Variant Edition. 

I’ve tried to do this before. I have failed, for obvious reasons.

We will see how long I last through this year’s challenge before retreating back into the world of picking around on social media.

Probably tomorrow.

Oh god, what have I done.